Abuse, Addiction, and a Father’s Suicide—Then Grace Found Him

Born Old Order Amish, Eli grew up under strict rules—and hidden abuse. After leaving at 18, he spiraled into alcohol and pornography, nearly destroying his marriage. Years later, after the tragedy of his father’s suicide, his wife Nikki prayed through the night. Eli woke up, dumped out the beer, and soon surrendered to Jesus. Today they share how the Holy Spirit replaced fear with peace and how God’s love can free anyone—no matter their past.

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Chapters
00:00 Amish childhood: rules, abuse & questions about God
00:33 Leaving at 18 → addiction and a broken identity
01:34 Marriage, a son—and deeper bondage (alcohol & porn)
02:24 Father’s suicide and the lowest point
03:00 July 2016: Nikki prays all night; the turning point
03:42 “I’m done”: dumping